futures???

cafe cafe, hmm...my first time though...
coz none of my family even pa got take me to have a taste
all i can say is, surrender to the prestigious meal...
sedate to the atmosphere
nevertheless, the gathering came to a sweet end..
dun know we can hang out again?? since later everyone's gonna busy
for me, form 6, numb and speechless..
i even wonder wat my ambition really is??? is it worth a fortune??
or just a plate of simple meal??aikss...
life's too difficult to spend, $$world$$
everything need to consider with money
hate with it, but people are meant to be through it..
making sure now i concentrate on my studies as well,
try to understand each word???ah geezzzz...dammit!!!
bio teacher act funny, i love his class..
he say if u can memorise every word of book, u are genuine...of course la!!
if one's brain can hold so much, till every word almost remember perfectly, i clapped my hand first...haha
mostly,
i agree with wat he say:
the one who think is easy, only read titles
the one who think is difficult, tat will hold futures....
i hope to be the second, will i makes it???i hope, really hope!!!!
for the sake of my life, for the stress and tension, i bear it no matter wat...
i dun know, but i hope since my siblings all go to U..
my mum says i can make it, thanks to her support...love ya^^

for all my friends, wish u all the bez...

happy father's day...

today pretty damn tiring for law class...5 hours, not kidding!!
still, i was like paying attention in the same time feeling sleepy...almost few times wanna close my eyelids...sooo boring, afraid to take out my novel...no time for tat today, since i came bec home juz asleep for 2 hours more, aiksss!!!
nevertheless, today is father's day, a meaningful day for father and kids gathering around...in such a speechless sweet day...
feel kinda bastard for myself, felt that i was not a good gurl at all...my father came back home as earlier as usual, just for taking us for a splendid dinner...and godda wat had i done?? actually wan mum to cook for me, turn out that my bro didnt have chance to go out either...felt kinda worse than ever, i didnt even know how to drive for sake!!!!wanna go to farley for buying montar, since it was my pa's favourite...= =''''my bro and sis didnt even wanna help me, worseeee!!!i hate myself for turning out such a idiot, even for a moment wif pa such a wonderful day didnt granted....i really wanna hate myself, even my money still given by my pa, i didnt have any money owned to buy a present for showing my appreciation...i wished that i got work, at least for buying sth for my family...everything just turns out to be words of foolish!!!!!
kinda bad and moody, but still i love u dad...

sweet as ever~~~

exasperated and inexplicable

so pathetic of all these while...
erratic moves that i have ever done, only now i realise
it's all a beautiful lie, lie to myself
how hard it's for me not to put myself in all emotions
dun know what's happening during those harsh times...
atrocious for me, is it prevaricated not to reveal???
the aura of thinking, meant to be as if unexpected???foolish....
excruciating moments beginning to crawl around my sensation
till one day i really awakened, better then i realised
i appreciated the impressionable by someone special...
thanks for everything, ur smile, ur humorous act, ur funny moves...
thanks for having a chat through the phone, only a short while doesn't matter adi..
it's all too exhausted, can i even have a chance to envisage more???
inclination and tending of meeting again, can i once desire???or by giving me a chance??
just wan to wish u good luck in everything, only in the dream...will u appear on it???
accept my sincere apology of havent given my wish...till we meet again.....

wishing~~

歌名:口袋的天空
歌手:张韶涵
专辑:潘朵拉
词: 姚若龙 曲:于京延

明天的 故事
都是我的 是我的
所谓的 幸福快乐
我学会了抉择

你的背 影 远得像雾了
我不再 回头
当脚步被回忆绑着
我跑过沙漠

我不要变得小小的
找 不到自我
好像被什麽人
放在口袋 没天空
明 天的 故事
都是我的 是我的
所谓的 幸福快乐
不止一种
美 丽的 春夏秋冬
落叶是我的
体 验过才懂 梦是什麽

wishing for an everlasting moment??is it possible to grant my wish????
i wish for that moment, the three of us walking home in every footsteps we took...
really miss tat second, even though i felt invidious seeing u two...
i just dun make a sound, keep on silent...
even miss every moments of our...but still u dun even care, right???
branches of hopeless...represents every nerves of feeling within...

moments of catching up..

plan out to watch movie"karate kid"wif old friends...
should i say, interesting and humorous throughout the film
long while since last time we watched"ice kacang", and now the 2th times
feel sedate to be with them, since we were actually met in primary five
stick together again during form 6, i think if they are not planning any studies
fresh around the permeated cool air, in the cinema, anyway not for de seat..
feel like myself motion and keep on changing perspect on every single time, damnn
maybe i still not suit with tat kind of chair, i guess..
still, the incredible movie sort of...kid playing kung fu style, flying all across to china with his mum..splendid stunt there, hold still the leg like over 90 degree for few minutes..trained well for posting the act....well done, kid!!!

anyway, go enjoy watching the movie by urself...if u like to laugh a lot, better dun miss it!!!








just the usual us, friendship till the end!!!!

of course my gratitude to one of my friends, stephanie...for giving me a wonderful present
i will use it one day, but now still keep it inside cupboard..hehe~~

gathering laz friday....11th

unusual, i'm not the type of gurl who hangs out wif friends...
typically i'm the normal gurl, stick to home most probably~~
since after SPM, i start to change, like to hang out, plan out to go where and choose time...hmmm
this year really change me a lot, i can say...but still need to be an obedient gurl, listen to every parents' words....they plan my life literally and wholly, i juz follow like a baby~~
reconsider someone might not accept and believe in what i say, but truthfully i am not lying~~what can i tell in this complicated society??? anyway, sometimes i might be a little disturbed by them...but i was glad i born in this cosy and lovely family...really~~at least i was in the palms of safety, hide away from all those tremendous incident in newspaper...i felt more sympathetic and pity to those teenagers...

anyway, forget all those things..

start with this day
actually is my thought of that day, dun know y...the eagerness of gathering with them??

here comes...^^


su ling and lee chieng...KFC for tea time







the three of us..bez friends forever...

met at PLKN, such a precious faith that bonds between us
dun forget our dear Catryn, that day she just keep on looking through phone
i dun even grab the chance to take shot of her...aiksss...



like both of these images, "so natural"....we laughed happily after saying it...



wala, Singapore Chicken Rice for our dinner...tiramisu ice-cream my idea
for dessert, but....it melts quickly!!!so we have to eat it first, geeezzz~~
all i decide , coz they say me birthday gurl~~haha

is it mouth watering???ahaha~~


two nice gurlz around~~



i need a good make-up...haha~~

cant believe 6 hours we really walk around and eat more~~getting hungry quickly
~~yiaksss~~!!!!

hope we can gather together again, wait for another friend from bintulu...
announcing our arrival from bintulu, chiew ling...haha~~so miss her, hope the day 19th meet her....

here's the pic of me and her...

is she cute???

nevertheless, tomorrow gonna watch movie with old classmates...yeappie!!!so long not seeing them, really miss them too...

birthday passes~~

thankful enough to all de sweet frenz's wishes...i love it!!!
cant imagine with my own eyes, sincere appreciation filled my heart..
such a special day, i cant thankful enough, the inbox mail wanna burst out...^^
the"first", such a wonderful note u write...
can't believe it's you, brings me so much laughter and warm pleasure...
it's still a secret, or else u will keep on bluffing with boostful words..hehe~~
hard to say, longed i wait, late wish hanging on me to the special one...
still a simple thank to you, although my mind kept on running"hope it will be u"
all's such a disgrace to me, i know...i hold my faith, hold my belief...hold on to ur willingness, but still unable to touch sincerely...become numb...totally Numb!!!

still, i hold my breath, unwilling to think much...
of course, i still love my families's wishes, those will always be my warm feelings..
...new member tat's coming through the distance, my bro-in-law..
welcome!!or should i say jie fu?? such a good choice u got, picking my beloved sister~~
hope u will always take care of my sis, wish both of you stand beside each other everlasting...
hmmm...wait for ur wedding, or should i say already married?? pursuit for mouthful delicious
and impressive meal..

anyway, here comes celebration of my 18th birthday

Secret Recipe...urghhh, should i say extremely expensive??
















hmm....such magnificent!!the creamy marble cheese it is..


vanilla milkshake, WOW!!!my pick..




my favourite.peehee~~



to my lovely pa and mum^^



my sweet sistEr~~




do i look like 18 year old gurl??~~I duN tHink So~~


life's such wonderful~~still holds on to it smartly, hope tat every pages
will be loaded of marvellous and splendid things...
life's all too short to give up, believe in urself...
find out the most truthful and precious pieces that hides at ur back, dun waste it or even forbid it...lead ur way around and put a smile on ur face...
purge on bad thoughts??? trying to throw it away, if i could remain silent and not making any sound of past...
recalling back any traces, i still cannot lie upon the words of reality~~break my tears after all...

first impression

flipping through every pages
every steps tat i took
long as i stood, first journey that i came acoss
satisfaction filled every nerves of my mind
first impression of the kem~~
for me ok, just the command from the teacher shocked me..
i felt a tense of frighteness crawled around me
with the luggage and what the heck?? bags of PLKN shirt and uniform outfit, damn...
bear for me to carry all the way along the road, i remember tat dreadful day
terrible but still determined to stick my feet on every path...exhausted but laugh???
crazy rite?? at that time i first met, caught my attention is a girl from delta...
when i saw her, i felt an ease of familiar look...do i looked wrong??
she's like my senior, almost de same look...a little different, that is...
later on we didnt chat much, or should i say just few meet friends???
not in the same kompeni, really harsh for me to know all of them..

exhausting, really tough..i just blurred all of a sudden when i c my room..
not that i dun like..maybe just not feel suitable around unfamiliar faces.....
dun know how's the atmosphere around??
one step after another, i arrived at my bed..pulling my luggage
hmmm, my locker and bed...en en en...later then, my mind clouded
open my locker, how to pack??? even stare around, finding them adi packing..oh gosh!!
i still have the time to watch and glacing around?? wushhh..
better glum my eye to my locker, actually juz packing clothes more, putting neccessities inside...
that night really...feeling my icy hands and legs, missing my mum some more~~
the worse night ever that i was unable to sleep at all
just feel that leaving parents so far, i felt lost...
a tiny leaf that still clinging on to tree...juz like a baby, need to grow up gurl!!!i told myself
came all this far, training myself to do things wisely and on my own...
ironing clothes, washing clothes....still fresh on my mind, but tis's really not the most difficult tasks...
challenging obstacles were those activities that might put u in danger, always be aware and careful enough to catch your breath through every command and lead..
still thankful and lucky enough to say that i was able to follow each activities, at least i tried and wore away pain as well as sweat...

wanna thank to the teacher for taking care of us, giving us advice and leading us the proper way of becoming a great model...the safety measure that provides to us, enable me to makes myself way through the intriguing stunts...

i felt glad that i really being picked for national service, a fun and memorable trips...
the most interesting part is that i can meet and know different friends from different places and states...becoming good friends, best friends...
miss them as always~~all the enjoy and tired days, all the geeks and peeks there~~all the gossips and admiration, all the laugh and cry stuffs, all the touched scene...
turn out to be a sparkling dream..that i longed and will miss it whenever i set my mind on it...