changes,,,

how should i admit that changes comes and go around nowadays....
it's not easy, everything still haven't come to a tight knot
settle down kept on spinning, hardly able for me to catch on it..
one of my classmate, left without leaving a note or even briefly explain
really dun know what's the wrong of telling us???for few days didn't come to school
not only did i realise , only tat i asked her
only then she replied that she wan stopping school, after i kept on asking her
i felt disappoint of such a friend, more of that she was chosen to be the monitor as well...
what can i say, thought that she transferred to art..
so in a class photo session, at that moment of time we have no chance but to choose another new monitor, such tremendous it is...
incongruous is all that's tracing in my heart, hard to imagine...

surprised me, SMK Sacred Heart sure larger than i thougt, especially the hall...
that was my bro's previous high school, surely this was my second time

especially i love the part of speech, meaningful quotes??
when u have thought, u have belief
when u have belief, u have expectation
when u have expectation, u have attitude
when u have attitude, u have behavior
when u have behavior, u have performance
when u have performance, u have trust
when u have trust, u have life..

aikss~~day after day~~

what an unbelievable experience~~
harder and tiring than longed i have expected
still wonder how i spent my every second throughout the week???
mostly influenced by my bro, since he plays continously in a crazier way~~
still before like he always tempted to tune up the volume, louder and louder
each and every song are nice, in the same way affected my mood
as in which type?? study-ing~~like i been lazier day after day
came back finish homework adi cannot stand the tiring way...
the books as display cases, u know how??
watching drama~~really bad for tis kind of hectic..= ='''
havent really catch up the series of many...,..
due to decoration, still havent really paste up all the equipments, damnn slow..
need to keep up the pace, but i still need more thought or ideas...
since i'm not on artistic mode, so just one pace by pace like tortoise
as coming back, nowadays i got the habit of afternoon sleep...
i dun know wat work that i have done right now?? all looks like a trip to myself


only know that mute things that impress me, more than 2 mins i talked
teacher said no bad for the comment, just need to moderate and tolerate others..wooshh!!^^
later Stella maybe transfer to art, who's my helper then???
i thought of~~~~either one of u, or just u...hmmm....hehe


nice grouping with two of the boys, since they dun have any position(jawatan)
sure funny, since i accompanied stella, or else let her alone with them...???
so i volunteered to the groups(mute), keep on laughing at there,
annoyed the group tat were discussing.....
the teacher kept on asking us quiet, so pity of her...^^
at that time should be having discussion with ourselves,
but one of the boy kept on asking me meaning and words to use...
better lend a hand,
and his expression of "baru tahu" amused me...~~~

going to school ok, just the sound of bringing assignments build headaches
build pain to my palm, ahahaha

miss it~~

miss the pictures shooting scene~~
tis time 5S1 won again, congratulate to them...
for me, sincerely happy for them
just that i can't barely faces de reality and truth..
one year of passing since that day, we all were happy tremendously as ever
just for the mission of accomplishment..with our form teacher
everything came to a tide, still i in de school..same environment, same stuffs but totally new feeling and new faces.....suit to it as ok, reminded me of before whenever familiar little knots..urgh~~
should i change my feeling since a new year??a "wonderful" year it is~~but changes all eternity....
the fact and the tragedy surrounded, pushed me till broken up..still i need to consider and push myself through, no matter how painful my feeling, still now~~

i miss u, i miss all of u, i miss u too~~
all i left behind, to all of u~~
too hard anymore!!!

tired
exhausted
frustrated
a whole new beginning
new year wanna comes, left half a year....
hate time~~

busy and busy~~

ruthless of changes all round the sphere
speechless to say, but still it's just life..
seem like it's just a part of routine~~homework
just like troops of bushes clinging around, everyday
no realise that i can actually becoming class monitor
like ages of now, unpredictable...,..(wonder??my idea of wanna be mostly)
i like to do work or sort, headache to say..tiring~~
all after changes of monitor recycled the third time
thought that he is the one to be the monitor, still wrong..
duty lies on me to assist teacher, contributing to problem
of decorating classes..~~???hmm..seemed like i still kept on thinking
no materials yet, a little idea i guess...the class is a total mess..
aspect of decorations???none at all...aikkss
in terms of clealiness, need to reconsider again...but still
i had to put on a good habit, be early on to school..
since form 6, almost 6.45am only arrived at school, poor attitude of me...
hmm...more of all becoming treasurer for KNS..need to make a list of names
for money payment...next week need to consider the names accurately and not less..

today school's sports day, damn...nostalgia bout the moments of 5S1..
the marching ceremony, last year we were the champion!!!
glint of humor flowed through the air, filling with inexplicable joyfulness
now vanished into traces of memory and sadness...
almost wanna broke out into tears, rolling within my nerves...
missed those, especially one of the scented smile
why left so hush??? , u didnt even give me chance to have few words...
=.=''' inevitable turn, till the return...
u adi changed, is it??? or still the same that i hardly recognise ur true self within...
better keep on moving into decoration stuffs...ahheemm...